I’m doing Marie Kondo’s Konmari method of tidying up the house. I love her books. I started using her method in January but stopped after I got sicker, and was having trouble letting go of things. Now I’m back at it, with renewed determination. I just bought her new book, The Manga of Tidying Up, and it’s a delight from the first frame. I just love this woman.
I finished tidying clothes in about three days, and have now moved on to books. She advises leaving memorabilia for last, because it’s so emotionally charged, but I found books to be pretty charged and difficult to tidy. In the end I was able to get all my books onto just one of our three big shelves, with room to spare, and filled 7 brown paper grocery bags to get sold back to a bookstore. It was a triumph, but it was tough! Books represent so much. Giving away a book I meant to read but didn’t, felt like wasted potential. Something I should have learned but failed to get to. I had to continuously remind myself that if I’ve had them this long and haven’t read them, I probably won’t get around to it. Though that didn’t stop me from keeping a couple dozen for a “to read” shelf. We’ll see if I really get to those.
While pulling things off the shelf, I found a few blank books that both myself and my daughter had bought. I held each one in my hands – as you do (does it spark joy?) – and pondered why I never used them. I realized it was because the books were too fancy. I felt a lot of pressure when I went to use them.
It’s the same with the blog. I want to blog more but don’t, because all the newer blog themes are too fancy. I feel like “they” (whoever chooses themes for the database) wants me to create a product, something I should be selling. There’s nothing wrong with that, with creating a brand for that purpose. Who knows, that might be my path someday. But for now, and for the last few years, blogging has only been about building a connection with others, through mutual hobbies, and especially through sharing the burden of living with a chronic illness. It may sound strange, but when I feel like the blog theme – the “notebook” – I’m using is too fancy, that it wanted more from me than I wanted to give it, I didn’t want to write in it.
So, back to an un-fancy theme. There wasn’t even a place to put in a menu of social media icons. Now that’s ancient technology. All this theme wants is a title and a few paragraphs. For now, that’s exactly what I want to give it.